PART 6 Shame, Guilt, Pressure: On Route to Healing


The punishment for rape or sexual assault in NSW Australia is 14 years. If I didn’t even know what happened then how was I morally supposed to go along with that? That's all I could think about. It consumed every thought. My mind went from constant shock and confusion to so much sadness and shame. I also was ashamed for feeling empathy for a man that had raped me while I was unconscious. Some people were understanding of this but mostly I was told if I didn't press charges then I am a bad person and essentially saying it is okay to assault people. In the end, I did.

Damned if I do talk

Pressing charges for a crime without memory

Damned if I don't talk

Soldiers of Creation